Situation.

Here we go again. The love of my life, my everything, all i ever wanted, the only thing i need in this world..is supposed to be with me finally the 21st of March. Unfortunately theres once again something keeping that from happening. What he takes as something bad, and as something that is saying he isnt meant here is actually something what the both of us wanted & what we could both now have. He says he understands that i NEED him here with me now more than ever, but i dont think he truely does =/. Were the definition of "meant to be" & "true love", this isnt something that we..or I can jsut throw away. Theres no way possible that i could let him go & go on like this never happened; that i never met my soulmate, the one & only who knows me and accepts me for everything about me, the only one who truely loves me and is inlove with me the way noone ever has. Ive never felt this before with anyone or for anyone and as i see it action needs to be taken on it. How is that supposed to happen when i cant afford it myself to take action and GO TO HIM? All i know is hes the most important thing in my life, i cant let him go, yet i cant wait any longer for us to start our life together. I just need an answer to my question of when..when will it finally happen, when will i be truely happy n together with the one i need most?..and noone can answer that question; not even me.